So my first actual post on here I’m having a rough day with my children, but honesty what do i expect I have a 5 and 3 year old. Love them both so much, but no one was kidding when they say boys are more physically draining more then girls. Well, having two feels like I have been running a 50 mile dash all day. Plus I have to work later on tonight guess it looks like it’s a RedBull night.
Also today is the first day i have not talked to my ex at all, and it honestly feels refreshing not having his added stress to my day. I started off the new year blocking him, because I realized he never deserved what little I do have to offer. After everything in my past relationships, his shit will not be tolerated. I know what myself worth is, and i know he did not deserve my time, energy, or the love i gave him. I have like a zero bullshit policy with the people I’m seeing or dating. My kids are the only ones who deserve my unconditional love, time, and energy. Even on days where they are rough and feel like they will never end, the days where it feels like I’m yelling a little more then normal, the days where I feel like I’m gonna cry over the fact I feel like I’m being pulled 100 ways. I love my children I really do, but some days I wish were better then others.
Being a mom with mental health issues and to very active kids, some days are worst then ever. Their dad not always being around does not always help either, also it doesn’t help their father and I aren’t always on the same page. Having shared custody is not the easiest thing in the world. especially when one person doesn’t always try and see your point of view. Sometimes I feel like I’m the only mature one raising these boys. I’m just so glad I have my parents to help me, because some days I don’t know what I would do without my mom around to help me.
This will probably be a good place to stop, because they boys aren’t really wanting a nap today and are trying to have a smack down in my house right now,but till tomorrow have a good day.
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